It makes me feel like I want to cut all contact with my family, because I am so tired of feeling hurt and disrespected. With not a sole to turn to for support, or even a friend to listen. I never thought on that day or on a few short ones that passed it, I would ever ounce be in a million years so strung out on you. This only further amplifies my feelings of being completely alone in this world. Soon it will be a year since the first time we met. But yes, it probably needs reiterating, being involuntarily single can be really really hard. Completely and utterly head over heels for you. I thought about it as creating a narrative so if and when I did meet someone later I was a rounded person of experience not someone one dimensional. I got out of my head for a bit, at least I was then " x who has been to Iceland recently" instead of "x who is destined to live and die alone". Synonyms for lonely 2 sad from lack of companionship or separation from others. At the end of my last relationship I resolved to head to Iceland under the "guise" of doing some research for my business ideas. I personally found travelling ( you can ALWAYS find a reason not that you should need one to be travelling solo-visiting friends abroad, some business research etc). However you sound both lovely and very open.
It is a bit simplistic just to say "you will meet someone" as who can see into the future.
I know all this doesn't detract from not having something you want. I have just had a very emotionally intimate exchange of messages with a bereaved friend which has albeit through sadness strengthened out bonds. Intimacy has so many forms and we have been socialised to think a romantic relationship is the only one, it is not. I think redmapleleaf's words are really very sound.
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